April 16th

Today I hiked from Cable Gap Shelter to the Fontana Dam Shelter, so distance of 6.2 miles. When I had looked at the incline profile for this hike, I had expected an easy day as it had appeared to be almost all downhill, however in reality the path went uphill several times. While these climbs were relatively small in comparison to the overall trail, they still represented a significant workout. I found myself at several points feeling frustrated because I felt “owed” an easy day and that I had been misled by my resources. While praying along the way, I felt like I had a reflection given to me that this mirrored my attitude about many things in my life, with times that haven’t gone as well as I had expected, with troubles that I felt were more than I was “owed.” However, I really have been promised an easy day, either in life or on this Trail, but what I have been given is a path that’s been laid out for me to follow. And that’s all I’m really called to do. Not to have an easy time or to go only downhill, but to take things step by step and seek to enjoy the rewards as they come. This is a daily struggle for me still.

 

While hiking, I listened to the sermon from last week’s service at my home church. This time, Marc was teaching on doubt. It was particularly relevant for me when he shared about a time he struggled with doubt due to a struggle in ministry. I considered my own life. I honestly have never really come to grips with how exactly is feel about my own failure in pursuing a professional ministry. I recognize that at the time I was simply not suited for it, even if I still feel the way that my path was ended was unfair. I believe that God used a sinful attitude in those who pushed me aside to accomplish a needed step of forcing me to a breaking point. I wonder though how that breaking point could have gone differently though if I’d had the faith to persevere instead of being left believing that God had abandoned me with broken hopes and dreams. If I’d taken time to seek Him and His guidance more rather than feeling lost and giving up to pursue other things.

 

The further the hike went, the more beautiful the day was. Fontana Valley is a gorgeous place and I can easily understand the attraction of using this place as a resort location.

 

The center driver of the area is the dam itself which causes a large Lake where the river is backed up. From the side we enter on, you come to a small marina, then skirt the lake edge to reach a camping area with a large shelter. The shelter here is nicknamed the “Fontana Hilton” as it is the largest shelter on the trail, with room for up to 24 sleepers, in addition public restrooms with flush toilets and even showers are freely available. This means that the shelter boasts amenities equal to a very basic hostel at no charge. I’m awaiting two packages which should be at the local post office. Unfortunately, I arrived on a Saturday and the post office is only open during the week, so I’ll have to stay here for a few days.

Today I hiked from Cable Gap Shelter to the Fontana Dam Shelter, so distance of 6.2 miles. When I had looked at the incline profile for this hike, I had expected an easy day as it had appeared to be almost all downhill, however in reality the path went uphill several times. While these climbs were relatively small in comparison to the overall trail, they still represented a significant workout. I found myself at several points feeling frustrated because I felt “owed” an easy day and that I had been misled by my resources. While praying along the way, I felt like I had a reflection given to me that this mirrored my attitude about many things in my life, with times that haven’t gone as well as I had expected, with troubles that I felt were more than I was “owed.” However, I really have been promised an easy day, either in life or on this Trail, but what I have been given is a path that’s been laid out for me to follow. And that’s all I’m really called to do. Not to have an easy time or to go only downhill, but to take things step by step and seek to enjoy the rewards as they come. This is a daily struggle for me still.

 

While hiking, I listened to the sermon from last week’s service at my home church. This time, Marc was teaching on doubt. It was particularly relevant for me when he shared about a time he struggled with doubt due to a struggle in ministry. I considered my own life. I honestly have never really come to grips with how exactly is feel about my own failure in pursuing a professional ministry. I recognize that at the time I was simply not suited for it, even if I still feel the way that my path was ended was unfair. I believe that God used a sinful attitude in those who pushed me aside to accomplish a needed step of forcing me to a breaking point. I wonder though how that breaking point could have gone differently though if I’d had the faith to persevere instead of being left believing that God had abandoned me with broken hopes and dreams. If I’d taken time to seek Him and His guidance more rather than feeling lost and giving up to pursue other things.

 

The further the hike went, the more beautiful the day was. Fontana Valley is a gorgeous place and I can easily understand the attraction of using this place as a resort location.

 

The center driver of the area is the dam itself which causes a large Lake where the river is backed up. From the side we enter on, you come to a small marina, then skirt the lake edge to reach a camping area with a large shelter. The shelter here is nicknamed the “Fontana Hilton” as it is the largest shelter on the trail, with room for up to 24 sleepers, in addition public restrooms with flush toilets and even showers are freely available. This means that the shelter boasts amenities equal to a very basic hostel at no charge. I’m awaiting two packages which should be at the local post office. Unfortunately, I arrived on a Saturday and the post office is only open during the week, so I’ll have to stay here for a few days.

 

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